Life is for Everyone

Ok, so this blog might be a little depressing but it is something that has been bothering me for the past couple days...well actually much longer, but I was just reminded of it a few days ago. Usually, I love working in the Emergency Department. It's always fun, I learn A LOT, and we never know what's going to come in. Most of the time, I can separate myself emotionally from what I am experiencing and go on with my life. But, some situations stick with me for a long time. Mostly it is those involving children.
To give an anonymous example: Woman in the late stages of pregnancy tries repeatedly to commit suicide by overdosing on a variety of medications (all while she was pregnant). Because of this, the unborn baby is found to be severely compromised and is not expected to live much past birth. The worst part is, the baby will most likely be born alive and then die shortly after and the mother won't suffer any consequences for it. She will leave the hospital, get a cup of coffee, and probably return to whatever is left of her life. But her baby never had a chance. I just don't understand how our society can accept this and turn the other way. Why is it her own choice if she wants to kill her baby? That poor child is stuck inside her being posioned everyday and doesn't have a choice at all. Why is it OK? I will never get it. I will never understand why anyone can ever justify ending a child's life regardless of how small it may be. If someone kills their child at 3 days old is it any less significant then if they killed it at 3 years old? NO. So why are we "allowed" to kill babies at 12 weeks gestation or 20 weeks gestation, when hearts are beating, brains are growing, and hands and feet are clearly moving? Why can society justify killing a baby faster than it can justify abstaining from sex? That is how sick and twisted this world is. It is supposed to be OK to have an abortion--to kill a child-- but ridiculous and "fanatically religious" to actually expect that young people make responsible choices and wait to have sex. That is just out of the question...how could we EVER do that?
I am not naive enough to believe that everyone agrees with me and no, I've never been in the position where I've had to deal with an unwanted pregnancy. Unplanned, yes...
I'm sure people have their reasons, but I will never understand them. Everytime I rock my sleeping baby, hear my toddler's uncontrollable laughter, and watch my preschooler hug her grandparents, I can't help but be reminded that they would not be here now doing these things if I had made a different choice. And I believe I would be a broken soul knowing I had somehow selfishly "decided" that they didn't deserve to have these experiences. It just makes me so angry that there is no boundry to the relativism... that anything goes...whatever you want to do as long as it isn't hurting others. But obviously unborn babies don't count as others. I myself will always defend the unborn. People have all the choices in the world...ending another life should never be one of them.