Crisis Averted...kind of...for now...

Who's this guy?
My turn!
Jon made the kids a water park the other day when I was at work...so creative!

Wow, its been a while since I've had time to sit down and write about what's been going on in our lives. Thankfully, for now, #1,2, & 3 are somehow all sleeping at the same time and I am sitting downstairs on a perfect afternoon for a nap, enjoying the silence and the smell of impending rain. So whats been going on? Well...I've been having sort of a personal crisis over the last week regarding nursing school. There are so many factors that contributed to the crisis, but mainly, I just didn't know (and still don't 100%) that nursing is for me. I LOVE the medical field, and have always wanted to be a doctor for as long as I can remember, but have always talked myself out of it. For one, I don't like studying...I have always been that person who is happy getting a B so long as that meant I didn't have to waste precious time studying. So, 10 years of med school just didn't sound appealing to me. And also, life happened. Now, with 3 kids, not only is the prospect crazy, but probably impossible. But, I just haven't been able to put the notion out of my head. I have also thought many many times about going into PA school. It's only 2 years and you get to do A LOT of what doctors do, including seeing your own patients and prescribing medication, etc. But, there are only 2 programs in this area and both are highly competitive. Plus, after all this time in school already, I would still need another year of chemistry before I could even apply.

SO, all this to say that I nearly dropped out of nursing school yesterday to pursue the PA route. I went back and forth all weekend not knowing what to do...finally, I came to the same conclusion that lead me to nursing school in the first place...it just works better for my family right now because it is only part time and I will be done (and earning money) in 2 years instead of 4. I have no doubt in my mind that I will most likely continue into a masters program to become a nurse practitioner (kind of the same as PA), but at least I will be able to work during it and hopefully get tuition reimbursement. This is what I am telling myself anyway :)
I guess I just can't get over this feeling that I woulda, coulda, shoulda...if I would have just listened to that little voice that emerged in 6th grade when I started learning all the bones of the human body that told me THIS was COOL, or if I would have been more motivated to do well in the first years of college when I was 18, or blah blah blah...I could go on forever.
I think also contributing to my dissatisfaction is the fact that I'm still not sure that the lady we hired to watch the kids is a great fit. She is very dependable and tries very hard, but she seems to have very little patience and is very intense. Could be a result of her age...or German background, but sometimes I feel like she tries too hard to control them instead of just going with the flow. Hopefully with time, she will be more comfortable.

ANYHOO...onto the fun stuff...
Hannah started school today and I just can't believe that summer is over already. She was so excited to meet her new teacher and friends. Today she just went for an hour and I got to go with her. We were sitting in circle time together as Mrs. Chase was going over all the information for the school year and Hannah would always be the first to yell out an answer and during story time, was practically sitting on top of the teachers feet because she wanted to be the closest... At the end, Mrs. Chase asked if anyone had any questions and Hannah raised her hand and said "Don't bring Peanuts!". It was funny :)
So, here we go, another school year...

I love the way Calah is looking at Hannah...she was crying when Hannah left for school because she was so sad that she couldn't go with.
Hannah with her Giraffe Tent...she used to have a purple one, but Calah broke it :(